Strahd (strahd13) wrote,
Strahd
strahd13

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I, Drone

I sit here sometimes and wonder what I got myself into. It doesn't matter about pride, insults, compliments, or any other ridiculous junk. I have a hard time committing myself to anything and when I think back at how quickly I jumped into this "family" I scare myself. It is too easy to say yes at the spur of the moment. It's not fair. I suppose I should take 3 seconds to be an optimist and....look at the bright side.

Bright Side
1. I am now extremely motivated to pursue things I enjoy
2. I am now only 80% lazy
3. I am becoming an adult at breakneck speed
4. I realize the importance of family
5. I am now in control of my own life

Is it wrong that it took the urge to provide for a family not quite mine? I feel cheated out of a "normal" 20-something relationship. When I "wish upon a star" about how our life could be without a baby I get moody/angsty/depressed/psychotic.

I worry myself about the expectations I hold for myself in the next few years. If all my dreams are crushed before my eyes I need to remember that I am responsible for 2 others now. Sucks.

Kevin's right. Nate's right. Matt's right. Brad's right. Brian's right. Danny's right.

This song is just screaming, "make me a badass video Greg!"

Bad luck wind been blowing at my back
I was born to bring trouble to wherever I'm at
Got the number thirteen tattooed on my neck
When the ink starts to itch, then the black will turn to red

I was born in the soul of misery
Never had me a name
They just gave me the number when I was young

Got a long line of heartache I carry it well
The list of lives I've broken reach from here to hell
Back luck been blowing at my back I pray you don't look at me, I pray I don't look back

I was born in the soul of misery
Never had me a name
They just gave me the number when I was young

I was born in the soul of misery
Never had me a name
They just gave me the number when I was young
They just gave me the number when I was young
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